As I try to figure out why my plans for life did not work out I come up with lots of speculations. In reality that is all I have. In trying to understand how life works, it is all any of us have. I felt called to preach. I struggled with it, gave in and put all my eggs in the basket. Then came the day I had no place to preach. Although I kept looking for chances I was forced into plan B.
Plan B turned out to be in education. I taught middle school for the next 29 years. I think I did a good job. I never felt like it was a life calling. I had chances to preach on occasion but nothing worked out to allow plan A. B was it.
I have many theories. I know I never said “No” to anything God asked. I was not living in disobedience. I was frustrated but kept moving forward. One of my theories is that if I had forced the issue I would have lost my children. I think I would have put the church first and caused them to hate the things of God. Another theory is that the struggle with plan B kept me on my spiritual toes. I was not able to stick in my thumb and pull out a plum as the nursery rhyme goes.
Think back over the people you know who have had “success”. How many have lost their children? How many have gone through divorce? How many have abandoned the faith? Does substance abuse figure into their lives? One of the truths of life is that there are few people who can handle being on top. The Bible character in my mind today is Solomon because I am reading about him in II Chronicles. He started out so well. Even today he is remembered for his wisdom. Few bother to remember how he ended up.
Chronicles leaves out the bad part of his fall. You need to go to Kings for that. In the chapter after the visit by the queen of Sheba you find a chapter entitled “Solomon Turns from the Lord”. That is not in the original Hebrew but it is a good summary. A few key verses,
(1Ki 11:5 KJV) For Solomon went after Ashtoreth the goddess of the Zidonians, and after Milcom the abomination of the Ammonites.I would suggest that Solomon started being impressed with himself and that became his downfall. He needed a little more suffering and a little less praise.
(1Ki 11:6 KJV) And Solomon did evil in the sight of the LORD, and went not fully after the LORD, as did David his father.
(1Ki 11:7 KJV) Then did Solomon build an high place for Chemosh, the abomination of Moab, in the hill that is before Jerusalem, and for Molech, the abomination of the children of Ammon.
There is a good reason for the paths that God leads us down.
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